Each day, or as often as I can, I log on to our blog hoping to see a new post about our little family and their happenings. I log on to facebook to see if Shannon has posted anything about her daily life. And I try to call/text daily to to try and paint a picture as to what they're going through. I do this to keep me as informed as possible as what we, as a family, are going through collectively. Yes we are in two totally different locations, but that doesn't alter the fact that we are a family and will get through everything together.
The life we have entered is a difficult, rewarding, different, exciting, unexpecting adventure. We knew what we were getting into before we started. We knew we'd be away from each other with intermittent short visits for this intial hoo-rah. We knew we wouldn't really back together until early December. We knew I may be deployed and actually kind of expect it to happen at some point - if it doesn't happen well then that is fantastic news. Knowing everything we knew and now know I still miss my love Shannon and our sweet crazy boys: Isaac, Eli, and Titus; nothing will change that.
I wish I could be around to help build the bunk bed that was completely taken apart for the move by the movers. I wish I could take cold showers with them because water won't be turned on till Tuesday. I wish I could help unpack boxes and find all the little things that were packed away in 'some box' that are now needed and wanted but can't be found. I wish I could miss out on having internet access for a day or two more. I wish I could have killed that roach that scared Shannon the first day in our new home. I wish I could take care of the boys - read them a story, wrestle with them, play a game, or build some legos so Shannon can rest her eyes because of the exahustion and stress that comes along from moving a family without their daddy. I wish I could be there when Isaac leaves for his first day of Kindergarden to wish him luck and tell him how proud I am of him. I wish I could hold Shannon, Isaac, Eli, and Titus right now and tell them all, in person, that I love and appreciate each one of them and all they do to make me a better person. I miss and love them so much. I am indeed a lucky man to have them in my life - even if we are temporarily separated.
I am grateful for the opportunity to serve my country, to lead the finest soldiers on earth as an Officer, and to have a stable job that provides for my family. With everything we've been through I know we will get through this just fine. But yup - it kinda sucks a little. :-)
Thank you everyone for all your love and support.
Shannon - you are the love of my life and an amazing wife, mother, and my best friend. I miss you. I look forward to the many years ahead we will have together. Years that will prepare us for the eternities. Know that you are continuously in my thoughts and prayers and I can't wait to see you again! Give the boys love and stay positive.
Everything will be just fine.
Thanks all!
-Matt
Before and After the 10k Ruck March.











































